Dear Lovely Readers,
I received an email from an avid reader last week that I, to the surprise of some, I actually welcomed. The email said:
"...I feel like the blog has gone a bit commerical. Which I understand, it's your sustenance, it's how you pay your bills and I appreicate all the vendor info as well since I am planning my wedding. But just thought I'd say that I miss hearing the "real tara"."And you know, I agree. Since the official Launch of the website in April, this blog has become a lot more about
Pacific Wedding Guide and a lot less about me. Trust me, I think I'm a pretty funny gal but (and I'm a little sad to say this too) I'm now riding the line between personal and professional, a daily tightrope walk between blogging about weddings in Hawaii and a nagging desire to dish about the latest in my life. Though I can promise you I would never walk a tightrope in this getup:

Some days I dream about starting yet another blog (as if the architect side of me over at
Eye Spy Design wasn't enough) but alas, there's no time for that. Then I think about writing a book- a good summer read, chick-lit, but I guess if I can't keep up with another blog maybe I don't have time to write a book either. (sigh) This image has nothing to do with writing a book but it has everything to do with writing a great sign. Damn, that's a great sign:

So I'm going to try to say this in the most un-narcissistic way possible (yeah, right), I'm going to let loose today and let this post be all about me... because, gosh darn it, people like me! (remember that one from SNL?)... no, I'm going to write about me today simply because I can. It's time for me to get back to being me. At least for today. And I like making lists, so here's a list about... well... me:
I'm a creature of habit, fo sho: I start off (almost) every day with a mocha ice blended with tons of whipped cream from Coffee Bean. I've had friends nag me in the past about my daily $4 coffee, but you know what? It makes me happy. I like waking up to sunny skies, a little Corinne Bailey Rae in my truck, white shorts in July, sipping on a tall cup of Mocha goodness that should give me a couple of extra pounds but seems to have no effect on me- so shoot me. At least I'm honest.
I like keeping my life in order: Just ask architect friends I've worked with or my 'Study Hall' group I sit with on weekdays at Town and they'll tell you about my infamous To Do Lists- impeccable handwriting in all caps unleashed daily from an Ultra-Fine Sharpie pen. But wait, Friends, it gets better- I draw boxes next to each item then 'x' them off when I'm done with a task. Thought I was joking? Yes, this is my actual list. Oh yeah, I don't take list making lightly.
I'm not the most sentimental Gal: Eek, OMG, now you know the truth. Whenever people ask me what my job is and I tell them about the website, they usually immediately think I'm infatuated with weddings. Ugh, so not what you think. The best reaction comes from guys on a first date- it starts with the head cocking to the right, a slight pursing of the lips, a narrowing of the brows- and that's when I stop them right there. I know exactly what they're thinking. So I'll cut to the chase with you the same way I do with them: I didn't get into this business because I was infatuated with weddings or infatuated with planning my own wedding or infatuated with planning my future-unborn-daughter's wedding, I got into this because I love design, I like giving people advice and a like a deadline. Weddings? Built in deadlines. Design? Check. And giving people advice on the best of Hawaii and New Zealand? Usually the highlight of my day.
I have no idea what's coming next: While I may sound like I've figured it all out, I'm far from it. While I've made 85% peace with moving back to Hawaii and settling into life here, I could also pack up and move tomorrow without batting an eyelash. I'd love to jet off to Sydney for three months and just chill, blog from a quaint cafe on Oxford street and lay out on Bondi Beach in the afternoon... and it will happen, all in a matter of time. For now, I love sending out a symphony of emails over morning coffee at Town, afternoon hikes around lovely Oahu and evenings cooking and gabbing with friends. I'm having a fun summer and I'll leave it at that.
I don't take myself very seriously, promise: Though the blog has come to have a more professional than personal tone, it takes almost everything out of me to not write a post wrought with satire or reeking of sarcasm. This guy, though, this guy takes himself seriously... I don't know what scares me more- the rosary and CD adorned helmet or the wild look in his eye. I don't take myself nearly as seriously as this guy. So there you have it, the truth.
Well, My Lovelies, I hope you're still with me. And I hope you'll be with me til the bitter end... Er, let's hope there isn't a bitter end anytime soon... Nah, there won't be, no way. I'm still around under an albeit thin veil of professionalism. I'd rather not have to be profesh but I'm still finding that balance between work and life... heck, I'm still trying to find that balance between a lot of things.
But the journey's what it's all about, right? I'll try to make more of an appearance from now on :)

xo, T.
pacific wedding guideThe guide to planning your off-the-beaten-path wedding in the Pacific
images from Flickr peeps benwmbc, SeenyaRita, Mike.Hanlon, John Baird, Greta ~adores~ Pink~, ILIGHT, rgdaniel.